first book out day!!
woohoo!!
been counting down to book out everyday..

nothing makes me happier than book out day!
can see bei bei finally!
miss bei so so so much in camp..
i've got terrible love sick.. =P

met bei straight after book out and head back to my place..
bei's staying over these 2 nights..
really enjoy and super treasure the time we had now..
but time just seems to pass so fast with bei by my side..
soon i'm going to book in tmr night again..
aww..

bei i'll miss u so much again..
but lucky for coming week,
am going to book out on thurs!
cos fri is labour day.. wee!
as what bei said,
never been so happy before during labour day..
can see bei bei longer next weekend le!

17 more weeks to go..
bei bei, lets jiayou together k..?

you're my strength to keep me going on~

the fearful day for us has arrived..
your mummy has found out..

is it really game over..?
I dont wish to..
I really dont wish to..
Can we be given another chance or is this our fate..?

I want you..
I need you..
I love you..
You're my whole world, my everything..
Life without you will be in total darkness,
cos i'll lost my torch and light of my life..
No more motivation that will keep me going on during the tough times..

All i want is you to be by my side,
to be part of my life..
Asked you if i'm selfish, you said love is selfish isn't..
And i really really wish and want you to continue to walk this journey with me..

Thought i was strong and not let my emotions overwhelmed me last night..
But now i could no longer hold back anymore and broke down..
How i wish this is just a bad dream or a late april fool's day joke..

Will we still be able to walk hand in hand to overcome this difficulty..?
Never says never always applies..
But somehow this time round it seems too much for us to handle..

I love you, i really really do~

this past 1 month plus had been quite happening..
no longer working for camelot..
spent lots and lots of time with bei..
double date and more double date..
birthday celebrations and visit to marina barrage..
night cycling and eating at our fav dim sum place..
meeting up with the people i hold dearly to..
bintan trip and 1 year anni..

had been quite enjoying myself especially with bei bei..
but fun with no work means broke..
we're super duper broke now..
and i've even got not enought money for bei to see doctor..
the feeling just sucks to the core..
am just so worried..
cant wait to get my pay on may..
there's so much things that need to be done..

double date to night cycling..
from east coast park to kembangan,
then to geylang for dim sum..
after that headed to kallang,
then to bugis for deserts..
we then went to city hall and raffles quay..
headed back to east area after much slacking..
initial thought was to go sempang bedok then to campsite..
but swan was too tired, thus headed str back to east coast..
but it was still great!
shall go for another night cycling soon yea..?
oh and we took photos at each stopover!
shall post the photos up again..

bintan trip was alright..
not as fun as i thought it should be..
everything at the chalet/ hotel was super expensive..
think they just want to cheat the tourist money..
however the visit to their town was an eye opener..
and the town products are so so so cheap..
swan bought a cap for just S$2 plus..
bei bought a superman belt for S$3 plus $4 i think..
their town is quite similar to tioman,
except it's much busier..
at times i just wish to experience how it's like to live in an attap house..
crazy me i guess!

our 1 year anni had just passed..
ups and downs during this 1 year..
guess i almost lost u that day..
but i'm glad it didnt happen..
i've learnt to treasure and cherish u even more like never before..
you're my everything..
never say never, remember..?

bei gave me a couple ring for anni..
tgr with the help from swan n shiqi,
they hid it in the sand at bintan..
i had to answer some questions first,
before i'm given the clue to where the present is hidden..
i was told that the present was hidden at the volleyball court area,
i had to dig and dig while they played.. -_-!!
bei so innovative, came up with these kind of idea..
many thx to swan and shiqi for their help too!
xie xie bei bei..
i love it very much..

3 more days to go before i start attachment as prison officer..
guess i'll be quite busy from then on..
prison's a place full of darkness..
people often gets curious of what's happening behind the walls..
and now i'm entering behind the tall walls..
the future ahead seems quite uncertain..
dont know what will happen when the day comes..
i'm starting to feel quite scared about it..
fear is the best word to describe me now..
hope everything will be fine..
i just need your support..

you are the reason that keeps me going~

free entry to bird park on valentine's day!
didnt know about the free ticket till we're there..
plus got free ticket for flyer, national museum etc..
so cool right..
but guess we've got no time to queue for flyer. =(

prawning with the rest on that night..
indeed a very enjoyable day with bei and the rest..

got accepted as a prison officer..
starting attachment on the 14th April..
then to training school for about 3 months..
gonna lose my freedom real soon..
just 2 more months to go..

all along this is what i wanted..
but somehow, the excitement is not really there..
cos of bei..?
i'm not sure either..

but glad their shift work timing is great..
still can go out after work..
hmmm once i start work,
guess i'll be a permanent PR at bei's place..
travellin from batok to changi daily is no joke..
guess i'll still be late if i take 1st train..
bei's mummy is fine with it!
bedok will officially be my next home!

finally we found a place for our 21st birthday..
not going overseas, dont need to book chalet..
staying over at Agnes's place!
think it'll be pretty similar to last year's celebration..

somehow i really miss the old camelot clique..
days in camelot will not be as interesting w/o them..
last year birthday was a big blast with them..
and not forgetting last year april fool's day..
i miss the days doing camps together..
i miss the days where we hang out together..
i miss all the crazy days together..
i miss the sai kang warriors..
too many miscommunication, misunderstanding..
too many factors..
but i really miss those days with you guys..

am glad i still have bei in my life now..
going 1 year soon after our birthday..
cant imagine life w/o u when i'm in trainin sch..

continue to stay by my side will ya..
never ever let go of my hand..

you are all that i had~

happy new year !!

house visiting as usual was not very great..
almost everyone was nagging at me..
cos i look too tan !!
keep nagging and nagging..
in the end got so irritated,
totally shut off and not response..

had been double dating recently..
swan got her sunshine..
the lucky bird..

but i wonder what's wrong recently..
i just dont understand..
shouldnt you all be happy for your friend..
and pls stop your selfish thoughts..
i'm so disappointed..
really am very disappointed..
just what's wrong manz..
dont want to care anymore..
shall pretend that i dunno anything..

oh and did i mention..
i went to genting just few days before new year!
it was such a last minute trip..
together with me, bei, swan and sunshine..
the trip was fantastic!
and the company was great too!
except bei was feeling sick in the night.. =(

the trip was really worthwhile..
we only had to pay $88 for transport and lodging..
with free 1 day breakfast..
and bei's buddy gave us complimentary tickets!
free outdoor and indoor theme park tickets,
free rides for cable car!
woohoo..
so worth it right..

come on ppl..
let's save up!
more overseas trip pls!!

but i guess birthday trip will be called off..
cant afford to taiwan or hongkong now..
so what's for birthday plan..
hmmmm...

your presence simply makes my day~

am in bedok library now bloggin with hp!
Like so cool hur..

Am so hungry now..
Didnt eat anything today..
Waitin for bei to finish work then dinner tgt..

It's chinese new year next week,
and i have not buy any new clothes yet!
Am going back to camp tonight,
argh, no time!

Suddenly these few days i dont feel like going back to work..
Last week at work simply sucks!
Hopefully it'll be better this week..

Roars..
Am feeling so lazy..
Just what's wrong!

it wasnt a good start for 2009..
so many mixed feelings within me for the past few days..

goodbye my friend..
you'll be remembered..
thou i think it's not worth it at all,
but i hope you'll be much happier in wherever you are now..

at times, some guys are really such a big jerk..
used to trust and believe you so much..
no matter what the rest said,
i still stood by your side..
but that was the past..

until today i realised i was wrong..
big big big wrong..
i was just too naive then to believe you..
no matter the reason is true or not,
it's no longer important now..
cos the fact was that you idiot cheated on me!!

it didnt come to my senses until bei told me..
putting together all the bits and pieces,
it actually made sense..
you bastard cheated on me!!

not worth it to waste my energy on this bastard..
if not i guess it'll be unfair for bei too..
but am glad that bei was by my side,
when i received the 2 crashing news..
thanks bei bei..

anyway i pass all my interview for prison officer..
but am not feeling as excitied as i should be..
i really wonder why..
ting was more excitied and happy than i am!

dont know when i'll be starting attachment and training..
meanwhile i'll enjoy my remainin days as outdoor instructor,
and spending my time with bei bei and the rest..
i'll definitely miss my wonderful days in the outdoor line..
couldnt believe my 1 year plus in this line is coming to an end soon..
really really enjoyed myself during this 1 year plus..
so many wonderful memories over here..
esp it's the place where i know bei!!
aww...

happy anni bei bei~

woohoo !!
it's 2009..

hang out with kee onn, chloe and bei last week..
it's just so nice to hang out with them..
so happy..
had new year countdown with them,
and some of bei's friends as well..

wooo...
i'm going for prison second interview tomorrow..
glad that the interview is tomorrow..
cos after tomorrow,
i'll be stuck in camp almost everyday..

oh, bei bought me 7 tops and a belt from thailand!
woohoo, now i got many many tops to choose from !!
thx bei bei.. =)

going 9 months le..
time really pass so fast..
days with you are really fruitful and enjoyable..
sometimes i really wish time can just stop here..
aww...

it's a new year..
but i dont have any new year resolutions yet..
i only hope that our 21st birthday will be a memorable one..
but before that,
save money, save money !!

oh and did i mention..?
i want to lose weight..
heex.. =P

1 more day !!

didnt sleep well AGAIN last night..
seems like lala land doesnt really like me..
1 night of good rest,
then the next night dont welcome me..
it's been in this cycle for days..

poly gathering today..
had post christmas gift exchange..

i got a shirt and 1 GV movie ticket voucher..

heex.. =)

went from raffles city to marina square,

and then to suntec city,
just to get 1 topshop voucher card..
grr, must be due to christmas,
thus many outlets out of stock..

went to ktv with them after lunch..
it feels so weird entering such a place without bei..
it just keeps reminding me about you..
reminded me of you holding the mike..
reminded me of your voice..
reminded me of the songs that you sing..
so miss hearing you sing.. =(

just a few more hours and you'll be back !!
and we'll be able to meet tmr !!
YIPEE !!
these few days really seem like decades to me..
glad that it'll soon be over..

cant wait to see you tmr !!

and not forgetting all the things that you got for me.. =)

heex, so excitied !!

but i want you more than anything..

2 more days!!

received my very belated birthday present tody..
wasn't really free to meet up with tw and jy then..
and yes, until now then we met to catch up..
heex, paiseh..
was really quite busy for months..
lucky we managed to meet up before i get real busy again..
anyway thanks for the present!

they got me a portable, travel pack mahjong..
yes, it's MAHJONG !!
was guessing and guessing..
ting, if you see this,
you sure happy de lo..
cos we can play mahjong whenever we go le..
it's really small and portable..

dunno what's wrong with my ankle lately..
it's been hurting on and off..
but i didnt sprain or injured it..
maybe cos of weather..?
i really dunno..

bei will be back tmr night!!
just 2 more days and then can see you le!
jiayou, hang on there..

dunno what's wrong with the phone,
always give attitude..
naughty phone, must guai guai ting hua k..
let me have my drug properly pls..

wondering what you're doing now..
wondering if you ate your dinner alr not..
wondering if you enjoy yourself today not..
wondering all about you..

it's night again..
waiting for my drug to arrive..

missing you~