it's sunday..
which means it's book in day.. =(
arghh, so dread it manz..
i hate the life i'm having now..

no bei bei around,
super love sick..
body is so so so tired,
and sucky life in camp..
i just need a longer break..
it just seems so hard to go on,
find no strength and energy to continue..

last week was great thou..
'MC' on wed and thurs,
went over to find bei..
we just needed each other so much..
was with bei over the weekend as well..
but it just seems not enough..
time with you just seems to pass extremely fast..
i really enjoyed myself with you bei..
how i wish it could be like that every week..

was on my way home today when i decided to buy the ji pai..
used to love it so much..
but once i bought it,
i no longer feel like eating it..
it reminded me of you so much..
we always share a packet together..
without sharing with you,
i felt so empty so empty..
i just couldnt seem to finish it..

my heart aches so much every weekend during book in..
i know you hate the life now..
i know you dont like when i'm not beside you..
i know you feel neglected cos we dont have much time together..
i'm sorry i cant be there when you needed me..
i'm sorry i cant be there to spend the night together..

i wish i could too bei..
i wish i could be by your side 24/7..
i wish we could go back to the old days when we were so happy..
i'm sorry bei..
pls bare with it for another 11 more weeks..
i need your encouragement to keep me going on..
i need your support so that i wont give up..
never say never is just too difficult now..

i'm losing my faith,
i'm losing myself,
i'm losing my direction,
i'm losing my motivation..
i feel so lost, so lost..

everything i do just doesnt seems right..
i dont know what to do now..
i only want to be by bei bei's side..
it's too late to regret now..
can only look forward to every weekend..

bei bei.....
i love you~

book out, book out!
book out, book out!

we've changed bunk allocation cos of the swine flu..
2 ppl to a bunk!
i love this bunk allocation manz!
but it's only temporary..
aww..

adult life is no fun at all..
cant understand why some ppl like to make life so difficult..
you all are alr in mid 20s,
but why are you all still so childish and immature..
just a simple 18 weeks training,
and you all want to make it so political..
is there a need to and what's the point manz..
grow up pple..
just a bunch of freaking brown idiotic girls..

been in camp for 3 weeks le..
everything seems pretty much of a routine..
but i still find no joy inside..
not because of the training, but it's just the ppl..
they say i'm so quiet..
cos i just find it no point to talk,
dont want to waste my breath and energy..
i'm simply much comfortable living in my small world..
at times i just think is this what uniform group should be like..
but guess things will be much better when i got posted..
officers at institute are much much much nicer..

coming week will be a long week..
will only be booking out on saturday afternoon,
cos of the opening house.. =(
and bei's working,
couldnt come to attend le..
will only be able to see you on saturday night le..
why cant they cancel the open house cos of the swine flu..
roars..

it'll be pay day on tue!
woohoo!
long time since we last received pay le..
we are so broke now..
but nvm, it's going to be over!
soon we do not have to worry about no money le..
just a few more days!

anni tmr, 1 year and 1 month..
happy anni bei bei!
just couldnt get enough of you..
days we have now just seems so precious..
guess we're just so lucky that u got off tmr..
thou we've got no money,
but your presence alone is enough to make my day..

am feeling so sick in camp..
love sick..
roars..

14 more weeks to go..

you fully occupied my small heart~

had a long long weekend..
spent my days over at bei's place..
it just seems to pass so fast..
hao she bu de orh..

guess it's our last chance to spend time like never before..
bei started working today..
and our time doesnt match anymore..
could only go fetch bei from work every weekend i book out..

but am so happy that you found a job..
and am glad that you like your work..

15 more weeks to go..
and i'll be back to normal schedule!
we must jiayou together!

looking forward to every book out day~