unlucky me

just had a fall few days ago at kembangan mrt station..
was talking while walking down the stairs and the next moment i was sitting down on the floor..
i missed a step and 'ouch' i went, laughing my way..

bao bei so bad la..
asked me if i'm fine not, and then started laughing..
super sway can..!
i sprained my ankle and had to report to camp that afternoon..!

already so sway for the start of the week..
but who knows, some more sway-ness is waiting for me..

my first camp with saints adventure was equally as sway.. =(..
went to camp with a heavy heart due to my sprained ankle..
it was really swollen..

sway-ness waiting for me in camp..
my buddy sucks big time !! totally a big fat idiot !!
who looks just like the kung-fu panda..
when one becomes too experienced, sometimes he will tend to become cocky and act like he's some super big shot.. yes, that's my partner..
even the second camp chief cant stand him..
so how bad do you think he is..?

shooting back at the camp chief, over stepping his authority..
scolding the kids and trainers stupid..
making fun and giving the kids name..
had to tell him about our kid's medical condition, he say don't tell him..
asked him when i'm not sure, tell me dont worry, and the next thing is, i have to settle for him..
updated matrix also never bother to tell me..
totally no communication between both of us..
shit him big times !!!

was so relieved after break camp..
i no longer need to face my 'idiot buddy'..
i no longer need to attend super long briefing and debrief..
and their debrief really reminds me of what we had gone thru during NYP camps debrief sessions..
those long winded, childish and immature debriefs..
boos !!

overall, it didnt leave me with a very good first impression working with Saints Adventure..
it was so unorganised..
but well, the management pple are very good..
imagine the boss of the company volunteer to help you do your job..
the BOSS leh, where can you find this often..?
and it's instant cash..
guess it's only these 2 factors that attract me now..
but i will really think twice if there's further opportunities to work with them..

it only makes me think thru what bao bei told me..
why we had to put our pride down to work for a new company, where we had to start and learn from scratch..
while in camelot it's pple listening to us..
but guess it's the exposure to different working experience and cultures..
sighs, and yes, that's life..

shoo those unlucky moments in the week..
and here comes a brand new week..
i believe the new week will be better..
and hopefully i'm going back to camelot this week..
i miss the planes, the sea and the stars pretty much..
job job job, come to me ba !!

and yups, to all my cliques in sec sch, poly or camelot..
you guys have been wandering round my mind these few days..
really missed you peeps..
wonder how you pple have been..

sorry, i've got very irregular working days and time..
cant really confirm when i'm free or busy..

but for sure, you guys are in my mind..
hopefully one day we will bump into each other on the streets..

take care pple..

off to rest my still swollen ankle.. =(..
zao~

yes i can !!

haven been home for quite some time..
and yes, i finally blogged..
yaya i know it's been quite a long time ago..

had been quite jobless these few weeks..
but well, camp still carried on.. at bao bei's place..

got bit sick a week ago..
but bao bei took great care of me, thus recovered fast !!
you boiled water for me knowing that i dont like to shower in cold water..
was still asking why need to boil water..
and you never really give me an answer..
and the next moment, you came back with the 'surprise'..
aww.. super sweet can~..
my heart really melted at that moment..

recently went to sport 1 course..
and i concluded that i really, seriously sucks at climbing !!
that's when i realised even with whole lots of determination, sometimes one just cannot achieve it..
i keeping telling myself, yes i can reach the top, i can..
reach higher and step higher..
but still, always cant find my grip and fall..
maybe the wall is too difficult..?
but i dont see why others can do it while i cant..
never mind, i will be back there one day and try again..
i just needed more practice..
like always..

and i still haven master dragonboat coxing..
i want to become an official DI one day..
grr.. had been stuck in it for quite some time le..
practice more practice..
never say never !!

bought bao bei a new bag that day..
woohoo, not very cheap wor..
but since you really liked it so much, so....
seeing you carrying the bag happily with such a wide smile, it just proves me that it's more worthwhile than anything else..

i only want to see you happy..
and how i wish i could diminished the fear in you..
but i know, it's impossible..
for once bitten, twice shy..

to be frank, i dislike her..
i hated her for what she had done and how she had treated you..

but bao bei..
she is she, me is me..
we are completely two different people..
dont put me together with her..
i am fishcake arh..!!
believe in me..

just how and what should i do to build the kind of trust in you again..?
pls teach me how.. bao bei...

'once bitten twice shy'..
what a well invented phrase..