count down

shoo those sinful trans fat and calories.. here comes my healthy lifestyle.. argh but where's my motivation.. i see no motivation.. i'm just a lazy bum with itchy mouth.. boohoo !!

new handphone, but gosh, think i'll need to take quite some time to figure out the functions and get used to it.. bare with it if i reply those sms slower than usual, afterall i'm too used to NOKIA products.. just hope it dont give me problems... =X

and who's free for mahjong ?? has been quite some time ago le.. hahax..

anyway, 1 more month count down.. =)

The Story of Two Teardrops

Two little teardrops were floating down the river of life. One drop said to the other, "I am the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him." Who are you? "Well, I am the teardrop of the girl who won him."

Love is very strange. Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted and dependent on the person. You become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt. Love can make you bear any kind of pain and any kind of sacrifice. It can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly. Sometimes when you love and end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.

Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves and you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside.

Tears are bound to shed from your eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it. When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time.

Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone. But how can you regret it? To give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do. Loving makes you real. Loving also makes you cry. And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.

as if like real

sometimes i just don't understand who i am.. am i just a tool to them, whom they can make use of, and throw away when not needed..

when in need of help, they will appear in front of you, smiling at you, talking nicely to you..

when you are not needed, they wont even give a damn to you..

when you are in trouble, where are they?? far far away..

when there are benefits for them, where are they?? staying and sticking close to your backside..

fish them idiots..

these are the ugly sides of humans, we should have just open our eyes wide in the first place.. i guess humans are just tools where everyone makes use of each other in a way.. how you want others to treat you, it's all reflected in your actions in the first place..

and yes, if you see me treating you coldly, you can don't bother to come near me in the future.. sad to say, but that's me, cos if you continue, you will only make me feel more disgusted..

i don't really care, cos i learnt my lesson, i got my freedom of choices.. i don't want to be a tool anymore..

**oh wells, i just need a place for frustration..

kids~

oh well, kids these days are so damn pampered.. ordering parents around as and when.. wonder how the parents teach them.. for goodness sake, dont pamper them so much la.. if i'm not coaching them, i will definitely stay far far away from them..

some kids are just so naughty, while some are so well-behaved..

actually what shaped the character of one?? the environment?? their sub-conscious character?? or how their parents teach them??

all of the above i supposed..

but in the future, if my child will be like the kids, i will rather not have any child.. i dont want them to pollute the society..