first book out day!!
woohoo!!
been counting down to book out everyday..

nothing makes me happier than book out day!
can see bei bei finally!
miss bei so so so much in camp..
i've got terrible love sick.. =P

met bei straight after book out and head back to my place..
bei's staying over these 2 nights..
really enjoy and super treasure the time we had now..
but time just seems to pass so fast with bei by my side..
soon i'm going to book in tmr night again..
aww..

bei i'll miss u so much again..
but lucky for coming week,
am going to book out on thurs!
cos fri is labour day.. wee!
as what bei said,
never been so happy before during labour day..
can see bei bei longer next weekend le!

17 more weeks to go..
bei bei, lets jiayou together k..?

you're my strength to keep me going on~

the fearful day for us has arrived..
your mummy has found out..

is it really game over..?
I dont wish to..
I really dont wish to..
Can we be given another chance or is this our fate..?

I want you..
I need you..
I love you..
You're my whole world, my everything..
Life without you will be in total darkness,
cos i'll lost my torch and light of my life..
No more motivation that will keep me going on during the tough times..

All i want is you to be by my side,
to be part of my life..
Asked you if i'm selfish, you said love is selfish isn't..
And i really really wish and want you to continue to walk this journey with me..

Thought i was strong and not let my emotions overwhelmed me last night..
But now i could no longer hold back anymore and broke down..
How i wish this is just a bad dream or a late april fool's day joke..

Will we still be able to walk hand in hand to overcome this difficulty..?
Never says never always applies..
But somehow this time round it seems too much for us to handle..

I love you, i really really do~

this past 1 month plus had been quite happening..
no longer working for camelot..
spent lots and lots of time with bei..
double date and more double date..
birthday celebrations and visit to marina barrage..
night cycling and eating at our fav dim sum place..
meeting up with the people i hold dearly to..
bintan trip and 1 year anni..

had been quite enjoying myself especially with bei bei..
but fun with no work means broke..
we're super duper broke now..
and i've even got not enought money for bei to see doctor..
the feeling just sucks to the core..
am just so worried..
cant wait to get my pay on may..
there's so much things that need to be done..

double date to night cycling..
from east coast park to kembangan,
then to geylang for dim sum..
after that headed to kallang,
then to bugis for deserts..
we then went to city hall and raffles quay..
headed back to east area after much slacking..
initial thought was to go sempang bedok then to campsite..
but swan was too tired, thus headed str back to east coast..
but it was still great!
shall go for another night cycling soon yea..?
oh and we took photos at each stopover!
shall post the photos up again..

bintan trip was alright..
not as fun as i thought it should be..
everything at the chalet/ hotel was super expensive..
think they just want to cheat the tourist money..
however the visit to their town was an eye opener..
and the town products are so so so cheap..
swan bought a cap for just S$2 plus..
bei bought a superman belt for S$3 plus $4 i think..
their town is quite similar to tioman,
except it's much busier..
at times i just wish to experience how it's like to live in an attap house..
crazy me i guess!

our 1 year anni had just passed..
ups and downs during this 1 year..
guess i almost lost u that day..
but i'm glad it didnt happen..
i've learnt to treasure and cherish u even more like never before..
you're my everything..
never say never, remember..?

bei gave me a couple ring for anni..
tgr with the help from swan n shiqi,
they hid it in the sand at bintan..
i had to answer some questions first,
before i'm given the clue to where the present is hidden..
i was told that the present was hidden at the volleyball court area,
i had to dig and dig while they played.. -_-!!
bei so innovative, came up with these kind of idea..
many thx to swan and shiqi for their help too!
xie xie bei bei..
i love it very much..

3 more days to go before i start attachment as prison officer..
guess i'll be quite busy from then on..
prison's a place full of darkness..
people often gets curious of what's happening behind the walls..
and now i'm entering behind the tall walls..
the future ahead seems quite uncertain..
dont know what will happen when the day comes..
i'm starting to feel quite scared about it..
fear is the best word to describe me now..
hope everything will be fine..
i just need your support..

you are the reason that keeps me going~