it's sunday..
which means it's book in day.. =(
arghh, so dread it manz..
i hate the life i'm having now..

no bei bei around,
super love sick..
body is so so so tired,
and sucky life in camp..
i just need a longer break..
it just seems so hard to go on,
find no strength and energy to continue..

last week was great thou..
'MC' on wed and thurs,
went over to find bei..
we just needed each other so much..
was with bei over the weekend as well..
but it just seems not enough..
time with you just seems to pass extremely fast..
i really enjoyed myself with you bei..
how i wish it could be like that every week..

was on my way home today when i decided to buy the ji pai..
used to love it so much..
but once i bought it,
i no longer feel like eating it..
it reminded me of you so much..
we always share a packet together..
without sharing with you,
i felt so empty so empty..
i just couldnt seem to finish it..

my heart aches so much every weekend during book in..
i know you hate the life now..
i know you dont like when i'm not beside you..
i know you feel neglected cos we dont have much time together..
i'm sorry i cant be there when you needed me..
i'm sorry i cant be there to spend the night together..

i wish i could too bei..
i wish i could be by your side 24/7..
i wish we could go back to the old days when we were so happy..
i'm sorry bei..
pls bare with it for another 11 more weeks..
i need your encouragement to keep me going on..
i need your support so that i wont give up..
never say never is just too difficult now..

i'm losing my faith,
i'm losing myself,
i'm losing my direction,
i'm losing my motivation..
i feel so lost, so lost..

everything i do just doesnt seems right..
i dont know what to do now..
i only want to be by bei bei's side..
it's too late to regret now..
can only look forward to every weekend..

bei bei.....
i love you~