it wasnt a good start for 2009..
so many mixed feelings within me for the past few days..

goodbye my friend..
you'll be remembered..
thou i think it's not worth it at all,
but i hope you'll be much happier in wherever you are now..

at times, some guys are really such a big jerk..
used to trust and believe you so much..
no matter what the rest said,
i still stood by your side..
but that was the past..

until today i realised i was wrong..
big big big wrong..
i was just too naive then to believe you..
no matter the reason is true or not,
it's no longer important now..
cos the fact was that you idiot cheated on me!!

it didnt come to my senses until bei told me..
putting together all the bits and pieces,
it actually made sense..
you bastard cheated on me!!

not worth it to waste my energy on this bastard..
if not i guess it'll be unfair for bei too..
but am glad that bei was by my side,
when i received the 2 crashing news..
thanks bei bei..

anyway i pass all my interview for prison officer..
but am not feeling as excitied as i should be..
i really wonder why..
ting was more excitied and happy than i am!

dont know when i'll be starting attachment and training..
meanwhile i'll enjoy my remainin days as outdoor instructor,
and spending my time with bei bei and the rest..
i'll definitely miss my wonderful days in the outdoor line..
couldnt believe my 1 year plus in this line is coming to an end soon..
really really enjoyed myself during this 1 year plus..
so many wonderful memories over here..
esp it's the place where i know bei!!
aww...

happy anni bei bei~