1 more day !!

didnt sleep well AGAIN last night..
seems like lala land doesnt really like me..
1 night of good rest,
then the next night dont welcome me..
it's been in this cycle for days..

poly gathering today..
had post christmas gift exchange..

i got a shirt and 1 GV movie ticket voucher..

heex.. =)

went from raffles city to marina square,

and then to suntec city,
just to get 1 topshop voucher card..
grr, must be due to christmas,
thus many outlets out of stock..

went to ktv with them after lunch..
it feels so weird entering such a place without bei..
it just keeps reminding me about you..
reminded me of you holding the mike..
reminded me of your voice..
reminded me of the songs that you sing..
so miss hearing you sing.. =(

just a few more hours and you'll be back !!
and we'll be able to meet tmr !!
YIPEE !!
these few days really seem like decades to me..
glad that it'll soon be over..

cant wait to see you tmr !!

and not forgetting all the things that you got for me.. =)

heex, so excitied !!

but i want you more than anything..

2 more days!!

received my very belated birthday present tody..
wasn't really free to meet up with tw and jy then..
and yes, until now then we met to catch up..
heex, paiseh..
was really quite busy for months..
lucky we managed to meet up before i get real busy again..
anyway thanks for the present!

they got me a portable, travel pack mahjong..
yes, it's MAHJONG !!
was guessing and guessing..
ting, if you see this,
you sure happy de lo..
cos we can play mahjong whenever we go le..
it's really small and portable..

dunno what's wrong with my ankle lately..
it's been hurting on and off..
but i didnt sprain or injured it..
maybe cos of weather..?
i really dunno..

bei will be back tmr night!!
just 2 more days and then can see you le!
jiayou, hang on there..

dunno what's wrong with the phone,
always give attitude..
naughty phone, must guai guai ting hua k..
let me have my drug properly pls..

wondering what you're doing now..
wondering if you ate your dinner alr not..
wondering if you enjoy yourself today not..
wondering all about you..

it's night again..
waiting for my drug to arrive..

missing you~

3 more days!!

had a bad night last night again..
was semi-conscious throughout..
just couldnt seems to enter lala land..
wonder what's wrong with me these days..
am just so freaking tired today..

nothing much for prison interview..
just some character and personality test..
had to be in office smart wear..
bei couldnt imagine that!
last time poly presentation i always got wear lo..
only you never see before nia..
aww, too bad..

time just seems to pass very slow..
it seems like ages to me when it's only a few days..
counting down to the day you're back..
counting down to the day i'll see you..

absence makes a loving heart fonder..

msg-ing you the same time as i'm blogging..
at times, your msg just feels like my drug..
it's the only thing that makes me feel alive..
guess that's the only thing i'm really looking forward to everyday..

trying my best to hang on there..
really hope time will seems to pass faster..
let's bare with it for just a few more days..
jiayou orh!

zhen de hao xiang ni orh~

4 more days!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL !!

it's a lazy christmas for me..
lazy to move, lazy to think..
maybe cos the special one isnt here..
awww...

out to get my documents photocopied..
photocopy shops at batok all closed..
had to go to jurong to get it done instead..
still went ahead to photocopy despite being $0.20 per copy..
now at the thought of it, it's actually quite ex..
am just too lazy and tired to search for cheaper ones..

went home and thought could slack throughout..
only to realise that printer got no ink..
argh, went off to buy again..

had to fill in the few forms later for interview tomorrow..
just so lazy to get my hands and mind started..

wondering what should i buy for christmas exchange..
it really kills my brain cells,
esp when i dunno who's gonna get it..

made bei a christmas card few days ago..
surprise !!
hope you really liked it..
thought will be more sincere if i do sth myself..
wait till you're back then we go get your present yea..

hao hao hao xiang ni orh.. =(
but time just seems to pass so slow without you..
how i wish it will be monday when i open my eyes..
3 more days to you're back..
4 more days to see you !!

bei, i miss you~

5 more days!

it's christmas eve..
other countries have snow,
but not singapore..
maybe that explains why it's been raining the whole day today..

am still so not used to my bed..
everything seems so uncomfy..
think next time i can save money dont need buy bed le..
sleeping on the floor still suits me best..

prison emailed me the details for interview..
it's another few pages of filling up particulars and info..
look at it just simply turns me off..
so many things to fill in..
lucky this time round can print and fill in..

bei's gone for bangkok..

counting down to monday to see you again..

wont forget what you asked me to do de..

see, i'm doing one of my task now.. =)

aww..
am missing you now..
hope you're enjoying yourself..
waiting patiently for night to fall and your sms..
may these few days seem to pass much faster..

i miss you~

your wish is my command!
and so here i am..

signed up for prison interview..
hopefully this can help shut their mouth..
thought if prison does not work,
then maybe can try CNB..
sometimes i wonder how come i choose the weird weird jobs..
well, maybe i'm also weird weird too..

kinda surprised me when i saw their pay increased,
as all the other jobs start to decrease their pay,
especially now during recession..

am not really ready for a change in working environment..
at least let me finish this coming peak season..
will really chiong camps once jan starts,
and start to save for my overseas trip..

likely will change to hong kong instead of taiwan,
since it's so much cheaper..
it doesnt make much difference to me,
as hong kong is one country would like to visit as well..
but what's most important is who i'm going with!

purple monster is out again ytd!
what a nice name given by chloe..
my friend just keep looking at purple monster,
not noticing me when i'm just right beside! -_-!!
but i'm so proud to have purple monster walking beside me..

you'll be off to thailand in ard 2 days time..
it's another 5 days of love sick..
yes will definitely miss you alot..
but u must really enjoy yourself k!

and i really hope u wont get sent to taiwan next year..
cos i cant imagine 1 month without you....

i love my purple monster!
at times it's just so blissful to hear you sing~

emo virus attacked..
had hard time falling asleep last night..
plus i'm so not used to my own bed..
guess this is what happens when you're always sleeping elsewhere..

chinese new year is coming soon..
besides getting extra income,
i'm so not looking forward to it this time..
it's the time when you need to entertain ppl..
entertaining the irritating ppl who keeps askin about your job,
not going to study anymore, blar blar blar..

first, it's not that i dont want to study..
i want to go back to study,
but i dont know what to study..
sometimes life as a student is indeed much easier..

second, it's not that i dont want to explain my job,
but ppl can hardly understand us in this line..
guess it's what we need to face being in this line..
they will be like hur, this kind of job got future meh..?
no CPF how can..?
blar blar blar..

it starts to get super irritating..
most of the time it ended up me turnin a deaf ear,
and not answering them at all..

you think i dunno how to think meh..
you think that i got no brains ar..
at least i'm happy with what i'm doing..
and it's not like i'm stealing, taking drugs or what..
look at another point of view, i'm an educator as well..

it's a very fun and meaningful job!
at least now when i'm young and energetic,
i still got strength and energy to do all this..
i'm glad there're still some who understands..

ever thought of changing job?
yes i did, am always thinking about it too..
but i'm really happy with my job and what i'm doing..
am really contented with what i have now..

yes i know the first step is always the hardest..
but i just wanna stay in my comfort zone,
at least for now..
it makes me know who i really am,
and am being myself..

different ppl has got different directions and focus..
i'm drifted away from the crowd..
drifting further and further into the deeper sea..
isolating myself in the big big sea,
picking up souls like me along the way..

someone once told me this:
"always remember in whatever things you do,
make sure your conscience is clear..
you dont have to worry about what ppl say.."
for many many years,
guess this is what helps keeps me going on in whatever i do..

would you choose a job that you like with low pay,
or a job u dislike with high pay?
i've made my choice, have you..?

emo virus killed me..

bei's back from taiwan for quite some time..
bought many many things for me..
ear piece, mp3, salomon shoe, keychain..
it really cost a big bomb..
thx bei bei, very very much appreciated..

few more weeks before you'll be flyin off again..
another 5 days again..
this time round i really hope you'll be back soon..
i cant help but am bit worried..
cos it's thailand at this point of time..
i only want you to be back here safe and sound..

so much wanted to be at your side today..
didnt know what happen to you today..
but i could greatly sense your sadness..
it's been long since i last felt you being so demoralised..
am quite worried but u insisted me not to go down..
hope you're really really feeling ok now..
i'll be supporting you no matter what decision you make,
as long as you feel that it's right and will be happy..
anything i'm always here k!

it's going 8th month with bei..
time seems to pass really quite fast..
still treasure every moment spent with you..
am really glad that you wrote an important chapter in my life..
*love love..

am so going to really start saving up now..
might be going to taiwan next year during our birthday..
so i better start to save and save!!
guess recession didnt seems to affect me much thou..
lols..

i want to stay as a happy girl..

day 4

it isnt a very good day for me..
could not really fall asleep last night..
thou feeling very tired,
just could not go into lala land..

my back is so stiff today..
and it really quite hurts..
could not bend down..
and even slight movements will cause it to hurts..
sitting or lying down just doesnt help..
the feeling really sucks..

it reminded me of the time when i sprained my back..
but i did not do anything vigorous today..
all i did was sitting infront of the com,
then the next moment when i got up,
it starts to hurt..
it's been hurting from morning till night..
and it killed all my appetite,
didnt eat much today..
hope it goes away tomorrow..

argh.. stupid back!!
shoo shoo shoo!!

bei will be back in 1 more day!!
cant wait to see you tomorrow..
how i wish you're by my side now.. =(
guess at least i'll feel better with your presence..
but nvm, it's ok..

just 1 more day..
hang on there..

may time seems to pass faster..

day 3

when the impossible has become possible,
what is impossible..
yes that's right!

bei came online last night..
was really happy and surprised..
didnt quite expect that..
chat for close to an hour..
it didnt seems that long in reality,
to me it only seems like 30mins..
guess maybe cos i really missed you so much..

bei bei thanks so much!!
you still came online thou you're very tired..
i really appreciate that..
i really really do..
xie xie bao bei.. =)

glad to know that you really enjoyed yourself there..

feeling much better today..
body dont feel as weak anymore..
only feel giddy at times..
still having cough thou..
and food still tasted so bland..

i've got a new phone!!
wanted G900 initially,
but it's out of stock..
so i got LG viewty for only $88..
sort of upgraded my plan..
since it's so cheap then why not,
it's really so worth it..
and i can sell it off if i really dont like it..
shall see how ba..
hopefully such a nerd like me can get used to it soon..

waiting for your msg now again..
2 more days to go!!
yippie!!

i miss you~