emo virus attacked..
had hard time falling asleep last night..
plus i'm so not used to my own bed..
guess this is what happens when you're always sleeping elsewhere..

chinese new year is coming soon..
besides getting extra income,
i'm so not looking forward to it this time..
it's the time when you need to entertain ppl..
entertaining the irritating ppl who keeps askin about your job,
not going to study anymore, blar blar blar..

first, it's not that i dont want to study..
i want to go back to study,
but i dont know what to study..
sometimes life as a student is indeed much easier..

second, it's not that i dont want to explain my job,
but ppl can hardly understand us in this line..
guess it's what we need to face being in this line..
they will be like hur, this kind of job got future meh..?
no CPF how can..?
blar blar blar..

it starts to get super irritating..
most of the time it ended up me turnin a deaf ear,
and not answering them at all..

you think i dunno how to think meh..
you think that i got no brains ar..
at least i'm happy with what i'm doing..
and it's not like i'm stealing, taking drugs or what..
look at another point of view, i'm an educator as well..

it's a very fun and meaningful job!
at least now when i'm young and energetic,
i still got strength and energy to do all this..
i'm glad there're still some who understands..

ever thought of changing job?
yes i did, am always thinking about it too..
but i'm really happy with my job and what i'm doing..
am really contented with what i have now..

yes i know the first step is always the hardest..
but i just wanna stay in my comfort zone,
at least for now..
it makes me know who i really am,
and am being myself..

different ppl has got different directions and focus..
i'm drifted away from the crowd..
drifting further and further into the deeper sea..
isolating myself in the big big sea,
picking up souls like me along the way..

someone once told me this:
"always remember in whatever things you do,
make sure your conscience is clear..
you dont have to worry about what ppl say.."
for many many years,
guess this is what helps keeps me going on in whatever i do..

would you choose a job that you like with low pay,
or a job u dislike with high pay?
i've made my choice, have you..?

emo virus killed me..