bei, do u know that i miss you..
i really miss you real badly...

every night i tried to hang out as late as i could,
cos i dont want to be alone at home without you..
the room feels so empty without you..
i felt so lost even in this small room..

used to so look forward to when i dismiss from work..
used to so look forward to when i'm waiting for you at home..

but now, i dread it when i dismiss from work..
i've got too much time not knowing what to do..
i no longer know what time you'll reach home..
every minute without you just seems to pass like hours..

i felt so lonely..
i felt so scared..
i felt so lost..
i felt there's nothing for me to look forward to everyday..
life just feels so meaningless now..

friends kept me accompanied..
but nothing could ever replace the loneliness in my heart..

i need a break badly..
we left our footsteps in everywhere and every part of s'pore..
everywhere i went reminds me of you..
everything i did reminded me of you again..

we've had too many memories..
and i'm glad most are wonderful memories..
memories that would make me smile..
memories that could make me melt..

i dont know what i want now..
i dont know how i'm feeling now..
i dont know what i should do now..
i'm really very lost, very confused..

this weekend to JB shall be a break for me..
at least we dont have alot of memories over there..
it's a good time to let me calm down and hopefully think through..

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it feels so good to be able to hug you to sleep still..
at least i can feel your warmth..
it just feels so good to be able to feel you,
have you in my arms even if it's only during the night..

i just cant stop caring for you..
i just cant stop doing all the small little things for you..
i just cant stop loving you..

i miss you bei...

i'm still waiting for u~