screw that miscommunication between us..
think till today u still think i yuan wang ni ba..
but i really really didnt..
i've never lied to u before,
so pls believe me..
had been thinking if not for that miscomm,
things may not have happen..
thou it's actually not really important now,
but i really need u to believe me..

love hurts..
it really hurts..
and i really mean damn hurt..

super hurt when it involves third party again..
super hurt when i see you so hurt yet i cant do anything..
super hurt when i feel that your heart is no longer with me..
but most hurt when you only want us to be good friends..

i just cant understand how fragile love can be..
i just cant understand why does it happen again..
i just cant understand how could it happen to us..
i just cant understand how can a few days replace your love for me..
maybe i just dont understand what is love..

you've made many sacrifices for her..
but aren't i've made many sacrifices for you too..
and i thought i treated you the best i ever could..
i thought i dont deserve all these to happen to me..
but it doesn't really matters anymore..
all i want is you to return to my side..

i want to always help you tidy your room..
i want to always help you wash your clothes,
hang and iron your clothes..
i want to help you feed our babies everyday..
i want to help you change bedding every week..
i want to pour water for you every night..
i want to go out with you whenever we're free..
i want to watch all my movies with you..
i want to do all my shopping and overseas trip with you..
i want to eat all the good food with you..
i want to celebrate my birthday with you every year..
i want to pat pat and hug hug you to sleep..
i want to be able to hold your hands,
hug you and kiss you..
i want to shower you with my love and concern..
i want you to be by my side always..

but guess eveything will be quite different now..
u'll no longer treat me like how it used to be..
u'll no longer talk to me like how it used to be..
u'll no longer msg me like how it used to be..
u'll no longer protect me like how it used to be..

i will remember all the wonderful memories u've given me..
all the memorable moments we had together..
all the roads, places and countries we've been to..
all the food we've eaten together..
but sometimes i wonder if u ever did remember me..

u promise we'll still be very very good friends..
i really hope this is the last promise u'll ever break..

but i still hope for the day u'll return to my side..
i really need you in my life cos i love you..
u'r all that i had left..
nothing weighs more important than you in my heart..
and u'r the only reason that keeps me going on..

bei, i love you..
i really really do..

*wonder will you ever read this entry..