had poly gathering last night..
somehow, feelings were different..
some things had changed..
or maybe it was just me who had changed..
i started to realise i'm becoming more and more anti-social..
but it was still nice being able to meet up with them after quite a long period of time..

often, we ask students to do reflections..
but how many of us actually do reflections often..
guess it's time for me to reflect on what i've done or say..

said what i've thought..
yes you're affected by what i've said..
and no doubt i'm affected too..
simply had no mood when i was out..
and broke down one day on the train..
cos you mean more than a friend to me..

sorry, i do not know how to phrase my words..
but i've really tried my best..
i even feel like slapping myself after saying some things..
yes, maybe there are some things i do not know..
but at times it's really very hard for me to believe or understand when your actions just show otherwise..

sorry i just cant understand..
i really really cant understand..
even till now..
maybe i'm not that understanding enough after all..
but there's no way i can hide the disappointment in me..

maybe it was a wrong move from the start..
but it's not up to me to decide..

oh wells...
maybe it's just a big wrong for me to be in the same circle then..

whatever..
to forgive and forget..