emo

had been feeling quite emo and down lately..
maybe cos of PMS..?
i'm not sure, really dont know..

sighs, so hated myself..

sorry for being so selfish..
sorry for being not frank about it..
sorry for being insensitive to your feelings..
sorry for hurting you, even if it's only a little or it doesnt really matters..

thou i think you said it doesnt really matters so as to make me feel better..
but am really super guilty about it..
cos to me, it really does matters..
if we were to change shoes, it really will be a matter to me..
and i know i really did wrong this time round..
and i really not think about how you will feel..

i do not dare ask to be forgiven..
but i hope there's a second chance..
pls dont verdict me to death sentence..
i'll learn to be frank about it..
and yes i will.. is definitely a must !!
for i do not want to hurt you another time..

smile, joy and laughter are what i hope to see in you..

anyway, departures seems like real agony to me lately..
really treasured and enjoyed our short meeting times..
it is really very wonderful..
however, time seems to pass extremely fast with you by my side..
at times i just wish that the clock would stop ticking..

was really damn reluctant to leave today..
fear in me arose once again..
really missed you alot thou you're right beside me..
i just dont want to leave..
i just want to cling onto you..
i just want to stay in your arms..
i just want to spend my night with you..
but i cant, we had to go home..

you had craved my life with full of wonderful images and memories..
felt so empty just now without you..
the need for you is getting stronger each day..
you had became a basic necessity in my life..

you're just like honey, i'm just like the bees..
with such great charm, i'm so attracted to you..
just like the bees and honey..

hate to say goodbye..
hate to turn around and walk off..
hate to see your back view getting smaller and smaller..
if only there is no goodbye.....
if only.......

if only, then we all should long ago become millionaire le lo..

feelings so being supressed inside..
feel like it's going to explode soon.. anytime..
and i so feel like crying out hard..

i miss bao bei..
a few more hours to go..

emo~