countdown

what's the use of my countdown?!! the stupid countdown!!
i hate this world!!
what should i do?!!
what do you want me to do?!!
nothing i do seems to help with the frustrations!!
how how how?!!
how the stupid hell!!
what the hell what the hell what the hell!!
maybe i should just end everything?!!
i hate promises!! i shouldnt have made any promises!!
everything seems to be so fake!! so fake!! so fake!!
i cant believe!!!
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
stupid!! idiiot!! fish!!
life is like madness!!
i hate everything!!!
i hate myself!!
i'm so disappointed with this world!!
i am not who i am anymore!!
i see devil in me!! i see darkness in me!!

i shall wait for the day where i can see sunrise again.. if that happens, pls be happy for me.. i wish i wish i wish.....


*sry i just needed a place for frustrations thou it doesnt seems to help.. sighs...