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i love to sit in a corner, but loneliness bored me..
i love to be in a crowd, but live in my own world..
contradicting..

i love to listen, but not to speak..
i loved to speak, but no words came out from my mouth..
contradicting..

wish to speak, but it's so difficult to explain..
wish to speak, but some things just should not be said..

when speaking, words came out did not describe my feelings..
when speaking, words came out cannot describe my feelings..

so, what's the use of speaking when it doesnt make a difference with or without opening your mouth..

some things can only be felt in the heart, where there is no suitable words that can be used to describe..
deep down in my heart, consist of many mixed feelings and thoughts.. can you feel how i feel ?? if you can, then you can understand the emo-ness deep down in me..

almost lose control of myself today.. it's just that close..

busy schedule pls come back to me.. i need my drug..

*35 more days.. 2 weeks has passed..
when will the sky be clear??