as if like real

sometimes i just don't understand who i am.. am i just a tool to them, whom they can make use of, and throw away when not needed..

when in need of help, they will appear in front of you, smiling at you, talking nicely to you..

when you are not needed, they wont even give a damn to you..

when you are in trouble, where are they?? far far away..

when there are benefits for them, where are they?? staying and sticking close to your backside..

fish them idiots..

these are the ugly sides of humans, we should have just open our eyes wide in the first place.. i guess humans are just tools where everyone makes use of each other in a way.. how you want others to treat you, it's all reflected in your actions in the first place..

and yes, if you see me treating you coldly, you can don't bother to come near me in the future.. sad to say, but that's me, cos if you continue, you will only make me feel more disgusted..

i don't really care, cos i learnt my lesson, i got my freedom of choices.. i don't want to be a tool anymore..

**oh wells, i just need a place for frustration..