happy 2 years sary

for this whole 2 years, he's the one..

he's the one whom i shared my happiness with..
he's the one whom i shared my sorrows with..
he's the one whom i know i can rely on..

he's the one who bring me joy and laughters..
he's the one who stand by me during difficulties..
he's the one who is always there for me..

till now, he's stilll the only one.. my only one..

happy 2 years anni..

loves......

**46 more days to go..

countdown

可不可以不勇敢 - 范玮琪
你用浓浓的鼻音说一点也没事
反正又美又痛才是爱的本质
一个人旅行也许更有意思
和他真正结束才能重新开始
几年贴心的日子换分手两个字
你却严格只准自己哭一下子
看着你努力想微笑的样子
我的心像大雨将至那么潮湿
我们可不可以不勇敢?
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办
我们可不可以不勇敢?
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难 道不能坦白的放声哭喊?
要从心底拿走一个人很痛很难



**S!@NZ... time seems to pass by so slowly.. 48 more days to go..
i finally understand what is meant by the world is not fair.. it really isnt fair.. it's just like TV shows, so dramatic, unbelievable..
till then, now i can only see sunset, no longer sunrise..

countdown

it's not only six weeks.. it's seven weeks !!
cos this is only the start of the fifth week..
49 more days..

what a day..

promises are not meant to be broken..

trust

du lan !! no wish to explain in details what happen..

but i just dont understand why humans(or maybe just some) are such horrible creatures.. fish them !! where has their sense of responsibility gone too?!! n what, good things we all share, bad things i carry.. fish !!

shrinking your dumb ass responsibility, pointing your fingers to others.. problem happen, separate our ties.. fish !!

in the first place, things should be done and settled long time ago, until now, few months liao, also haven settle.. your actions do not tally with what you said.. i hate the word 'settled liao' when it is not yet at all settled.. si beh du lan..

just who the hell should i believe in and put my trust in them.. maybe all along its just my fault to be so naive and trust you the dumb dumb, shitty BOSS !!

the most i just walk away and quit doing.. i wont lose anything.. and thanks to you for teaching me never to put 100% trust in you again and others !! fish you !! i seriously think there is something wrong with your 人格，品德!! super du lan la !!

sighs, sometimes i just dont understand mankind.. the world isnt beautiful at all..

grr.. i'm still so fed up.... !@#$%

A Couple's Heartbreak

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. Nopoint in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

oh no

boos !! if i'm not wrong, i think i just lost a job opportunity.. the person called early in the morning when i'm still in my lala land..

indian lady: hello
me: hello
dead silence
me: sorry, who are you looking for?
indian lady: is this Su Yanrao?
me: erm... sorry i think you called the wrong number..

she called the second time and i said, sorry i think you called the wrong number again..

after i hang up, i just realise that the person she's looking for most likely should be me, and i'm also waiting for the call... boos !! since i'm still in my sleeping mode, i cant interpret the name she said properly.. should have gotten used to the wrong pronunciation of my name, but, oh wells, cant blame me, my head is still not awake yet.. ahhh..

it's a private number, so i cant call back.. so.... there goes my lifeguard job.. and i doubt they will call back again since i said wrong number TWICE !! or unless that's not the call i am waiting for, but highly impossible, since it's about the time they should have contacted me.. sobs... maybe i should just take up the floor trainer job instead of lifeguard ?? hmm.. which one ??

moral of story: next time choose a easier to pronounce name for your son or daughter, or if not a christian name.. of cos not by the name of fishcake, go out people shock nia.. hahax.. =P


and..... i miss him.. =(....
count down~

count down

shoo those sinful trans fat and calories.. here comes my healthy lifestyle.. argh but where's my motivation.. i see no motivation.. i'm just a lazy bum with itchy mouth.. boohoo !!

new handphone, but gosh, think i'll need to take quite some time to figure out the functions and get used to it.. bare with it if i reply those sms slower than usual, afterall i'm too used to NOKIA products.. just hope it dont give me problems... =X

and who's free for mahjong ?? has been quite some time ago le.. hahax..

anyway, 1 more month count down.. =)

The Story of Two Teardrops

Two little teardrops were floating down the river of life. One drop said to the other, "I am the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him." Who are you? "Well, I am the teardrop of the girl who won him."

Love is very strange. Love is unconditional commitment to an imperfect individual. You need it but when you love, it's like destining yourself for pain. You become addicted and dependent on the person. You become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt. Love can make you bear any kind of pain and any kind of sacrifice. It can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly. Sometimes when you love and end up giving so much of yourself, subconciously you only discover how much you've given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.

Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person. It goes away when he leaves and you are left with a sickening, empty feeling inside.

Tears are bound to shed from your eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them in. Most teardrops ever shed on this earth have been for love or lack of it. When tears dry, a silent loss sticks to your heart for a long, long time.

Well, that's what you get for caring so much about someone. But how can you regret it? To give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do. Loving makes you real. Loving also makes you cry. And that is why a teardrop is also BEAUTIFUL.

as if like real

sometimes i just don't understand who i am.. am i just a tool to them, whom they can make use of, and throw away when not needed..

when in need of help, they will appear in front of you, smiling at you, talking nicely to you..

when you are not needed, they wont even give a damn to you..

when you are in trouble, where are they?? far far away..

when there are benefits for them, where are they?? staying and sticking close to your backside..

fish them idiots..

these are the ugly sides of humans, we should have just open our eyes wide in the first place.. i guess humans are just tools where everyone makes use of each other in a way.. how you want others to treat you, it's all reflected in your actions in the first place..

and yes, if you see me treating you coldly, you can don't bother to come near me in the future.. sad to say, but that's me, cos if you continue, you will only make me feel more disgusted..

i don't really care, cos i learnt my lesson, i got my freedom of choices.. i don't want to be a tool anymore..

**oh wells, i just need a place for frustration..

kids~

oh well, kids these days are so damn pampered.. ordering parents around as and when.. wonder how the parents teach them.. for goodness sake, dont pamper them so much la.. if i'm not coaching them, i will definitely stay far far away from them..

some kids are just so naughty, while some are so well-behaved..

actually what shaped the character of one?? the environment?? their sub-conscious character?? or how their parents teach them??

all of the above i supposed..

but in the future, if my child will be like the kids, i will rather not have any child.. i dont want them to pollute the society..